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The Bearable Lightness of Being
by Nick Drengenberg
Copyright (c) 2010 Nick Drengenberg,
all rights reserved worldwide
Other articles by Nick —
Confessions of a Do-er
| Floating in a Sea of Tissue
| I Wouldn't
Start From Here |
Posture: The Great
Big Rump
This is a very brief summary of a few apparently disparate bodies
of work that actually link up together nicely, as they all in
fact point to the same underlying thing. I first came to these
different traditions through reading about and experimenting
with the Alexander Technique. Alexander definitely discovered
something about the way our bodies work that many had missed
up until that point. But what Alexander stumbled upon is actually
much bigger (and simpler) than he realised, with vast implications,
and not just for our bodies.
Part 1 of this article will run through some
key concepts. Part 2 will attempt to describe how to use these
concepts in everyday life. There are references to David Gorman
below, see his website at:
www.learningmethods.com
for more information on his work. Donald Ingber's work is
at: http://web1.tch.harvard.edu/research/ingber/
PART 1
Elastic
The human body is a tensegrity system.
At every scale or level, from the 'macro' level of organs and
limbs right down to the cellular and sub-cellular level. Traditionally
structures use a combination of tension and compression elements,
and these are fairly distinct and used for their own purposes.
But in a tensegrity structure the tension and compression elements
work together so that forces are distributed evenly across the
entire structure. Any force applied to a tensegrity structure
is evenly distributed across the entire structure — traditional
structures such as buildings don't do this, any force applied
to them or by them upon themselves create focused forces in
particular areas, which the design of the building does its
best to minimise, usually by making most parts of the building
compressive.
To
the right you can see a picture of a child's toy built using
tensegrity principles. The wooden rods act as compressive elements,
and the elastic string acts as the tension elements. If you
compared it with our musculo-skeletal system in a very simple
way, the rods are like bones and the elastic string is like
our muscle and other connective tissue. You can squash this
toy in any way you wish, and the forces will distribute themselves
evenly across the whole structure, and afterwards it will immediately
rebound to its original shape. This is because the compression
and tension elements distribute all forces evenly across the
structure. It also then doesn't matter which way the structure
is held in space - it has no preferential 'up' or 'down' direction,
or any other direction.
How does this actually look in the human
body? It's easiest to see in the musculo-skeletal system, although
again keep in mind that the tensegrity mechanisms are at every
scale and are therefore in every organ and system and cell of
the body — and these different 'parts' are all connected to
each other and form a single, unified system. One of the most
surprising things you might notice if you could see a human
body stripped of its skin is how much muscle and other connective
tissue there is. We're completely wrapped in muscle
and connective tissue.
This doesn't match up at all with what a
lot of us were taught in biology. Muscles were often described
as being in pairs, and compared to levers in analysing how they
work. So you implicitly built up a model in your head of your
muscles in bits and pieces all around your body, with not much
sense of there being a connection or relationship between them.
But when you look at a human body without skin you see straight
away that all of your connective tissue forms what David Gorman
calls a 'suit'. A single, snug-tight suit enveloping all of
the internal organs and bones. And connected to those as well,
for as Ingber says, the entire body is tensegrity systems nested
within more tensegrity systems, right down to the tiniest detail.
Every bit of you is always completely connected to every other
bit of you.
For me just knowing that changes straight
away how it feels to be inhabiting my body. Because in effect
what this means is that you don't have any 'parts'. It's all
just one, unified and connected thing. David Gorman describes
this suit as an 'elastic suit', because the muscles are pre-stressed
by gravity and the suit is therefore like a stretched elastic
band. Your skeleton sits inside this suit and is suspended in/by
it, and the skeleton in turn acts as a spacer for these muscles,
stretching them out into a recognisable 'human' shape. Bones
are some of the compressive elements in this tensegrity structure,
although again in a genuine tensegrity structure there are no
absolute distinctions, as bones themselves then have both compressive
and tensile elements.
Cells
Tensegrity is how all of you is
knitted together, right down to your cells and beyond. From
micro to macro. For example how a cell develops, i.e. what sort
of cell it becomes, has been shown to depend on the forces placed
upon it. The cytoskeleton of the cell, for example, will determine
whether more cells are produced or cells are destroyed. A very
flat cell, i.e. one that has been stretched together with its
cytoskeleton, suggests that more cells are needed to cover that
particular area, and so flat cells divide, producing more cells.
Rounder cells suggest the opposite, that there are too many
cells in that particular area jostling for space and thus a
tumour is a possibility. So very round cells undergo cell death,
to prevent this. In between these two extremes normal cell and
tissue functioning occurs.
An obviously exciting implication of this
is that the health and actual make up of your body, at every
scale, is shaped by the physical forces on your body. Much research
has been done on the chemical, biochemical and genetic behaviours
of your cells and other parts of your body, but these are very
often secondary responses to forces in your body. If forces
or stresses are focused and maintained in your body, anywhere,
then your cells and body chemistry are changed by these forces
and your body physically changes. This is how many cancers develop,
cancer cells have also been shown to develop from physical forces
applied to them. There are now research programs working to
reverse cancer and other diseases using physical means.
Micro and Macro
The most exciting implication of the scale
independence of tensegrity structures is that anything you do
at the macro level of what you normally think of as 'you' flows
right through you, to every level, down to the tiniest gene
and gene chemical. So while there are research programs as mentioned
above working at the cellular and tissue level on cancers and
other conditions, you have the ability to fundamentally shape
your own body, at every level, through how you go about things
at that macro level. That includes the ability to both avoid
disease, and to actively reverse it or significantly mitigate
it once it's there.
Gravity
Being upright is an important thing to understand
in relation to the body and tensegrity. While you can get a
sense of how that elastic muscle suit holds you suspended in
the forwards and backwards and side to side directions, what
stops it all falling to the ground i.e. downwards? The answer
is not what you might expect. It's gravity. Popular views of
gravity assume it's a force acting downwards on things, towards
the ground. "What goes up must come down", etc. But that's not
how gravity works. Gravity is a force between two bodies, generated
by those bodies themselves — we'll stick with Newtonian gravity
for simplicity. Any two masses are mutually attracting each
other at all times, to a greater or lesser extent.
So not only is the Earth acting upon us,
but we are acting upon the Earth. We are equally 'pulled' towards
each other. The only reason objects such as ourselves head towards
the Earth and don't float is because the Earth is much bigger,
and therefore this equal force between us makes these much smaller
objects move towards the Earth. An analogy would be imagining
you pulling a small person and a huge person with the same force.
The smaller person might fall over, and the huge person may
hardly move at all, even though you pulled them with the same
force.
Once you and the Earth actually come into
contact, it's important to remember that all forces act in pairs,
there is no such thing as a single force acting alone. High
school physics. So if I push on a wall, the wall pushes back
on me with an exactly equal force, in the other direction. Otherwise
it would fall over. The same happens when you stand on the ground.
The gravitational force generated between you and the Earth
is the same size acting on you and the Earth, but it draws you
towards the Earth, because it's much bigger. Then when you touch
the Earth that force keeps being there and the only place for
it to go is into you and into the Earth, at the same time. So
UPWARDS into you. Otherwise you would fall into the Earth beneath
your feet.
We tend to think of the Earth as a static
lump of unmoving stuff beneath us that we more or less fall
onto, but there is no stable place like that in the universe.
All stability is relative to the masses involved, if you're
floating around in outer space you certainly won't feel that
there is any solid ground for you to rest on, but if you find
a planet that's much, much bigger than you then you will be
drawn towards it and when you touch it will certainly feel stable
simply because of its size relative to you. If you zoom out
from the Earth it's obvious that it itself floats in space,
in the gravitational field of other bodies like the sun. It's
not just sitting there.
So if you stand on the Earth in a balanced
way, the total or net force on you is zero. Your weight acting
downwards is exactly balanced by the Earth pushing back up on
you. You need absolutely no effort to be upright, because the
Earth is always just there, balancing your weight pushing down
with exactly the same force pushing up. So you should just be
sitting or standing there in space with no sense of weight or
any force at all, as if every particle in your body was just
floating where it is (which in a sense it is, because the net
force on each of those particles is zero). Most don't notice
this because they don't know it, and assume that if they stop
holding on desperately in their various postures, they will
slouch and slump and fall to the ground.
This is obvious. For example if you look
at any object sitting on your desk, or your desk itself sitting
on the ground, it's clear that they're just there. They don't
need to 'hold themselves up' because we all just know that objects
resting on the ground sit there 'upright'– this is because of
the forces described above, but you don't even need to know
that for it to be an obvious fact that things don't need to
be held up when they're resting on the ground. They may be unbalanced
sometimes and want to topple sideways, but you have a full muscle
suit that stops that for you. Put your body on the ground or
on a chair and it will just sit there effortlessly erect, there's
no need for you to continuously haul it upwards to keep it there.
So you have a full elastic suit stopping
you from falling forwards or backwards or from side to side,
without you having to do a thing. And gravity is pushing right
up through every bit of you, keeping you upright by balancing
exactly your weight acting downwards. So to just stand or sit,
to just be, you need to do nothing. Not one tiny bit of effort.
Zero effort. And yet many people do use a lot of effort every
day to do these things, because they don't realise their body
is set up to do it all for them. They can't even stand in one
spot or sit on a chair for more than a couple of minutes without
shifting and pulling themselves upwards and so on, because they
think that's all stuff they have to do to fight gravity. But
gravity is on their side, it will hold them up without them
having to do a single thing, if they let it.
Moving
So how do we actually take this effortless
suspended system and get it to move? We tend to think that's
also something we need to do, to use effort. To move our legs
to walk, and so on. But even when we move no effort is required.
None at all, zero. Energy is needed, but not effort. We don't
need to 'do' a thing to move i.e. we don't need to 'make any
effort'. If you're standing and want to walk towards something,
your entire body right down to the smallest molecule releases
some of its tension in that direction so that you are sprung
forward. You haven't needed to move any bits. It all moved at
once, your entire body. Of course you can interfere with this
and try to move bits, and then you'll feel tension and effort
as you throw the whole, unified system out of whack.
All the things people often do, of trying
to move parts of themselves at once — of moving their legs or
arms, or hauling their torso upwards to stop slouching when
they sit in a chair — makes no sense at all from the point of
view of this tensegrity suit. Like a balloon, the suit is a
single, continuous, elastic structure that dissolves any way
in which a leg is separate from an elbow, or your head from
your feet, etc. Every movement you do is a movement of all
of you — that's the nature of tensegrity structures, all forces
are distributed equally through the entire structure. And yet
every day many of us pull and push parts of ourselves, using
effort to move our legs when we walk, or to lift things with
our arms, and so no. Treating each movement or activity as something
one part of us is doing, rather than all of us.
The experience of effort IS the outcome of
thinking of yourself as a collection of parts that need to be
moved independently. Effort you feel in your body, like the
effort of sitting upright, is simply a concentrated force, and
as we've seen above in tensegrity there are no concentrated
forces, they are all distributed evenly throughout the structure.
If you think about what you're doing each time you feel effort,
you're usually trying to use one bit of you at a time. You're
trying to 'pull with your arms' or 'push with your feet', and
so on. You've split yourself up into bits, and the effort you
then feel is the forces in your tensegrity structure being focused
in some parts of you to allow you to separate that part of you
out in that way.
Given Ingber's insights this all flows through
to other systems of the body as well. For example your breathing
is linked to every other part of you and will adjust itself
accordingly at each moment to what you're doing. Having been
a kid with asthma and having tried a whole range of 'breathing
exercises' over the years, I can tell you that's a complete
waste of time. Your breathing is in no way separate to everything
else going on in your body and your activities around you. In
fact when you experience yourself directly as a continuous,
unified and distributed tensegrity structure, there is no noticeable
separate activity called 'breathing' at all. No sense of any
inhaling or exhaling, no sound of breath (what we often think
of as the sound of breathing is really nothing more than the
sound of turbulent air flow, from the overly forceful, deliberate
sucking and blowing process we mistake for breathing).
Air enters and leaves your body, or can if
you allow the process to act as it evolved to act, by a beautifully
poised and automatic dynamic balance between pressure differences
in your chest cavity and the entire atmosphere of the Earth,
and the elasticity of your ribs and lungs and associated respiratory
organs. But like many other things we do, we try to take that
over and make it about sucking and blowing, fiddling with parts
and exerting enormous forces on our exquisitely sensitive structures.
Even traditions that work with breathing will exhort you to
'take a deep breath', as if that's something you do.
But from my own experience if you just forget altogether that
there is any such thing as breathing and move back out into
your whole body and the world around you, when resting you'll
be lucky to take 4 breaths a minute, and you'll only notice
those if you do something like watch your chest moving, you
won't hear or even feel it. That's deep.
Dissolving Divides
Tensegrity structures dissolve many taken-for-granted
distinctions. For example the distinction between structure
and function. Take a bridge as an example. A bridge
has a structure that is visible, made up of girders and struts
and cables, or whatever its particular design may be. But its
function is to carry things across some space, and if you're
driving across that bridge you don't actually go anywhere near
most of the structural elements. They're separate.
In a tensegrity structure the structural
elements, like the elastic string and wooden rods in the toy
shown earlier, act at the same time as the functional elements
of the design. Your body is the same, there is no way for example
that the structural constituents of your leg are separate to
the actual functioning of your leg. The forces and 'structure'
of walking are the walking itself — what your bones
and muscles and tendons and ligaments are doing when you walk
is 'walking'.
Another way to understand this is to notice
that in traditional structures you have the structure, and then
a variety of forces on the structure, in different places. In
a tensegrity system on the other hand there are no distinct
forces in this way, as all force is distributed evenly throughout
the structure, and actually erects the structure. There
is no real distinction between structure, and forces on the
structure.
To use a further example, it's quite common
to assume that there is an opposition between being supported
in our bodies, and being free or relaxed. So in many of our
activities we feel we need to make a lot of effort, after which
we need to relax and 'let go'. So if you watch somebody sit
for long periods in a chair for example, you will tend to notice
that they alternately hold themselves up, and let themselves
drop or slouch/slump. Effort and relaxation, alternately. Then
they hold again, then they slump as they tire again. Etc. Like
watching the pistons in an engine move up and down. Using your
body as the tensegrity system it is allows you to reject this
yoyo dance completely, as you are supported, and at the
same time completely free to move.
Plugging Into the World
It's fine to talk about the body, but human
beings evolved in the world. So where does the world fit? This
isn't always a major focus of tensegrity work. When we sense
the world, when we smell or touch or see or hear, we are IN
THE WORLD.
Perception extends the boundaries of our
beings out into the world. Again it's not us 'here' sensing
things 'over there', here and there change all the time depending
on what we sense. Sometimes I'm curled up in bed and my here
or 'I' becomes an isolated point, not really involved in the
world around me. At other times I'm wide awake and outside taking
in the clouds and sounds and objects off in the distance etc.,
and 'me' is this much wider, potentially infinite space. If
I send you a text message via mobile phone, my actions 'here'
impact upon your phone 'there' as good as instantly, where there
could be a metre away or anywhere on the planet. Does that mean
my phone is just that block of glass, plastic and metal in my
hand? No, because its physical functioning, what it displays,
is immediately woven into a vast network of global electromagnetic
waves that connect all phones (potentially) to all other phones,
simultaneously. What electric current flows through my phone,
what colours and text come up on the screen, what sounds come
out of the speaker etc. are all dependent upon what other phones
are doing when they connect to mine, anywhere in the world,
at that time.
Our bodies are the same. What causes us to
become erect and to move, and not just a slouched and slumped
immobile ball, is being in the world. Perception is this being
in the world, it immediately and automatically erects and animates
our bodies. (To use more technical terms, sensation is always
intrinsically sensory-motor. It's not sensation first and then
motor action following, sensation and motor action are one and
the same thing.) When you 'see' something, at that moment 'you'
is that extended network or pattern of things stretching from
your body and eyes right out to what you're seeing. There's
no boundary between you and what you're seeing, that full space
between your body and the object is 'you', in that situation.
Look somewhere else and the response of every part of your body
changes immediately, and 'you' become something different, right
out to what you are seeing. Just as the behaviour of your mobile
phone is dependent upon that wider network, out into the world,
it's a device that doesn't work without that wider network.
This is why people often slouch in a chair,
not because they're not holding themselves up in some way, but
because they've become disconnected from what's happening around
them. Their eyes glaze over as they withdraw into themselves,
usually lost in their thoughts. Compare the average slouching
human with most animals — animals' eyes usually look alive and
alert, constantly. Allow yourself to be aware of that world
around you and you'll feel your body immediately and automatically
expand towards what you're noticing. (Don't look, but see. Don't
listen, but hear. Let the sights and sounds just be there with
a completely passive eye and ear, and do the same for every
other sense. Be in space.) In a way we're like marionettes waiting
for somebody to pick up our strings and animate us, with that
somebody being the world. But the analogy doesn't quite work,
because puppetry suggests a separate puppeteer and puppet. Whereas
the boundaries of ourselves are extended out towards the world
around us we are engaged with, which becomes a part of our selves.
Awareness
Sensation is shadowed by something we all
know about, but rarely pay much attention to — awareness. It
can be difficult to find a real difference between sensation
and awareness, as concepts they're often used to describe very
similar experiences. In probably the most common use of the
word, awareness is a sort of diffuse attention. For example,
sitting here typing I'm aware of the couch next to me, but am
not directly attending to it, that is, I'm not directly focused
on the couch. So I'm paying attention to the computer as I type,
but I have an awareness of the room around me at the same time.
Above we saw that perception is not really
an act, but is the experience of our selves having no boundaries.
Seeing, hearing and so on extend who we are, those sights and
sounds and the spaces they form become part of us. Awareness
is showing us this amazing truth, but we usually don't notice.
There's something usually unnoticed about awareness. It's not
you that is aware. Because you can also be aware of you.
For example, when you're feeling cold, notice if your awareness
of being cold is also cold. I bet it isn't. Your awareness of
you isn't you either, you can be aware of those thoughts you
would normally think of as you just as much as you can be aware
of a couch. Which means you are not your thoughts.
Awareness is non-personal, it is bigger than and outside 'you'.
Awareness is the experience of us and the world being one,
indivisible thing. Awareness has no actual centre, within
us or outside us. The centre of awareness can be shifted to
any point in the world.
As you perceive something you can allow your
awareness to expand almost infinitely, with practice, and you'll
find that your experience will change from one of "me sensing
something" to one of experiencing everything that's happening
inside and around you, at the same time. The feeling of there
being some privileged point, i.e. you, that everything else
is being viewed from, disappears. At first as I type I take
in the couch, then without losing that awareness I also start
to feel my body in the chair, see the walls and roof, hear everything
going on in the house around me and outside, all at the same
time. Each new awareness gets added to what was there
before, they all share the same moment, at the same time. Once
the awareness has expanded like this there is no sense of here
or there, no privileged central point, everything is happening
at once and all those spaces are part of my experience. I even
notice that what before I thought was me, that string of thoughts
constantly going through my head, itself occupies a space within
this much wider space, and is not the centre of it either. My
experience of this full awareness notices these thoughts come
up and go away again, just like it notices sounds as they arise
and fall, or smells or sights, or even emotions and feelings.
None of it is 'mine'. There is no me in that way.
Now that might sound a bit out-there in a
New Age sort of way. But it's nothing like that. You will have
had experiences matching what I just described before, you just
may not have realised what it was you were experiencing. Say
you were at a concert that blew you away, your experience of
that concert was probably at times that fully immersive experience
I described above, where everything was happening at once and
there was no sense of some separate 'you' standing there taking
it all in — it all just happened. You were 'in' the music',
and in the mood of the crowd, and in the lights and smell of
the place. All at the same time. Same when you've been in a
cinema and the film was one you loved, I bet those couple of
hours flew by and you were fully absorbed in the film — you
didn't have a sense of sitting in a cinema staring at a screen
at all. The film made you laugh, cry, feel scared — whatever.
Your whole being expanded to take in what you were sensing in
the film as well.
PART 2
How To Do It?
Describing the fundamental architectural
principle that holds you together might be enough for some people
to figure out how to put it all into practice. But driving a
car is a different skill to knowing how a car works, and in
the same way knowing about tensegrity structures doesn't mean
you immediately know how to go about in the world acting as
one. Although of course in another sense you can only act as
a tensegrity structure, because that's what you are. This is
more about acting in a way that works with that structure, rather
than against it. There are different aspects of the experience
of working as a tensegrity structure, and different descriptions
will work for different people, or the one person may find that
multiple descriptions help, all pointing to the same basic structure
and function of their body. Over time you'll likely find ways
to describe it yourself that work for you too.
This fully expansive being in the world takes
all of the tensegrity and sensation and awareness characteristics
described above and weaves them into a unified being in the
world that can be you just going about your everyday activities.
As you are out in the world seeing and hearing and so on, gravity
is holding you out there without you having to go back inside
yourself to try to hold yourself up or fiddle with other parts
of you, for example. At times as you learn how to be in the
world in this way, you may find yourself isolating one of these
aspects and trying to 'do' it, like going about trying to feel
the Earth come up under your feet. Nothing wrong with doing
that, it's fun, but over time you need to be able to get on
with things out in the world and ignore that, just implicitly
using that upward support in what you do. Over time that weaving
together into a single, unified, simple experience will become
easier and easier, until it becomes just how you are and live.
To be able to use yourself properly as a
tensegrity structure, it's vital to remember that it's not just
about your body, but about the world that your body is a part
of. Your body makes no sense at all without the world around
you, where it evolved and which it's always a part of. As above
being in the world is what animates our bodies, what makes them
work. There are many 'bodywork' techniques for working with
bodies, from basic exercise and gym work to yoga. You could
do just about all of them and not realise there's a world at
all. They generally want you to 'work' this or that bit of you,
in complete isolation from the everyday activities and environments
we all live in. Even the best ones often talk about the body
as a whole, but then cut it off from any sort of world, or allow
it only to peer out at the world 'out there'.
You were born with a complete continuity
between yourself and the world. So how should that feel? Your
mind shouldn't feel separate to your body, and that combined
mind-body shouldn't feel separate to the world. But those are
just nice phrases — in practice what does it mean?
In practice it means a change to what it
means to directly, 'physically' experience yourself. Everything
from the head down becomes as much you as what you'd previously
thought was you, i.e. your 'mind' up in your head. And out into
the world around you, which becomes part of your larger, undivided
sense of self. No parts, just all one thing, where there is
no controlling point that directs all the rest. In particular
no need to route all sensations and feelings through your head.
They are just what they are, where they are.
At first you may try to make that happen
by still sort of sitting up there in your head and reaching
out to feel the other bits of you, and to 'look' out at the
world with your senses as if you're still trapped up there in
your head. Any time you get caught up trying to do it all a
certain way, you'll know you're back in the divided thoughts/body/world
place again. Sounds and sights and feelings in your body and
your thoughts are just there, all at the same time. You can
experience them just where they are, in space — you will
feel and perceive them where they are, all at the same
time (which means 'you' are that extended, continuous being
which includes everything you feel in your body, and the world
around you). Its an existential thing, not a thinking thing,
you have to experience and feel the change,
not work it out or think about it.
As you sit or stand there, or as you do anything
at all, if you just allow all of the elements of your
experience, from bodily feelings to sensations from the world
around you, to simply be there, you will notice that it's all
just THERE. You don't need to look or listen or do anything
at all to feel and perceive yourself and the world around you,
all together, all at the same time. No need to reach out from
your head to be in your body or in the world, the space and
sensations and feelings are all there already, with their own
spaces (learning to experience and directly feel spaces
is a major part of this learning process). And it's all connected,
all of this world is happening at the same time, and you can
experience it happening at the same time with no central point
running the show. The feeling of your feet on the ground is
there at the same time as what you're seeing, and as your heart
beats, and as the sound of the bird you hear, and as the thoughts
you're thinking, and so on.
If we go back to the description of the body
as a tensegrity structure, one of the crucial aspects of being
a tensegrity structure to keep in mind is that forces can't
be concentrated or focused anywhere. So as you sit or stand
there, or as you do anything at all, if you feel some force
anywhere in your body, like some tension in the back or shoulders
or knees, or some weight, or some need to hold yourself up or
use any sort of effort, you'll know straight away that the tensegrity
structure is being misused. When you allow your tensegrity structure
to work properly, your whole body/mind should feel like a single
undivided thing, with no sense of weight or of parts or concentrated
forces. Feel that single, continuous suit of muscle
wrapped around you. You should feel like you're (because you
are) completely effortlessly suspended in that wraparound suit
of muscle, held aloft by gravity pushing up through your feet
and into the rest of you. You can easily directly feel
this, it changes completely the way you experience your own
body. Rather than it being an arm here, leg there, torso here
etc., with the need to pull and push each of these bits, or
hold them up, you can feel the whole lot as just a single web
of connected tissue wrapped around you.
Also feel that suit release as a whole in
the direction you want to move, as described above. Not moving
this leg and that leg, but the whole suit, all of you, at once
releasing at the front of you as you move forward. No pushing
or pulling but a releasing of elastic energy in those muscles
that is already there. Or even if you want to raise your arm,
let it release upwards as just part of that entire, single body
suit. No need to lift it at all. This is the way hypnosis works
when it gets people to 'levitate' their arm. It's not a trick,
but it's also not a 'trance' state, but simply the person focusing
their attention in a such a way that they stop trying to do
things to bits of themselves and instead let their tensegrity
suit release them into movement in different ways. (Hypnosis
produces a relaxed focus that stops you from 'doing' things
and splitting yourself off from bits of yourself. But actually
you can do all of that much more simply, and you do, every day.)
Thoughts are the biggest hurdle. They're
the hardest parts of your experience to treat just as another
part of experience, like a sound or smell. Time and again you'll
probably find yourself living in your thoughts, and feeling
like they are you. But they're not you. Open your eyes and ears
and you're immediately in a space that doesn't need your thoughts
— when you notice that you don't need to look or listen to see
and hear things, you realise that your experience doesn't have
to all be channelled through your mind or thoughts. In that
moment you'll feel your thoughts sitting alongside
what you see and hear, as just one other part of your experience.
With their own space.
The Head Leads, The Body Follows
While your entire body/mind is a unified
system, it has a preferential endedness to the way it's put
together. Your head leads what the rest of you does. Your biology
is constructed so that the rest of you automatically and effortlessly
follows your head out into activities, as you see and hear and
smell etc. (David Gorman's work again describes all of this
brilliantly.) Your body literally releases continuously into
activity as it follows your head into what you're doing. That's
common sense, as you go about doing things as a whole person,
your eyes and ears and other parts of your head need to be doing
their thing, leaving the rest of you to do its thing. It's easy
to reinstate a split in yourself by thinking that your head
does one thing, and the rest of you does another thing that
is directed from the head. So 'looking' and then at the same
time trying to make your arms or legs or breathing do something
else. In practice you overcome this split by letting your attention
be out into the world, and then feeling the rest of you following
that attention. You experience all of you in its following of
your attention in what you're doing, in the same moment.
Some begin trying to do activities as a single,
whole being by enjoying that sense of their head to toe being
totally connected, but then they realise that the minute their
attention shifts from that body out into the world and their
activity again, they can't do that and pay attention to their
bodies at the same time. But that's the split again, their body
can be in their awareness at the same time as their awareness
is out in the world in what they're doing. And what they feel
is that body following their head out into the world, that's
what their body is doing at that time. So as you pour that cup
of tea and are taking in the vision and sounds etc. of the teapot
and cup, at the same time you can feel your legs supporting
you and your arms pouring the tea, as they automatically follow
your attention in what you're doing. No need for you to go inside
and make those arms and legs and the rest of you do anything,
they'll automatically follow your attention.
Looked at from a broader context, it's not
so much that the head leads the rest of you as it is that the
world leads what your 'body' does. It is your activities out
in the world that animate your body, with the head being just
one cog in the connected network of you-and-the-world. The connecting
cog that takes your 'body' out into this world, although again
it's one seamless thing, there is no you and no separate world.
And all parts of this connected network are there at the same
time, and can be experienced at the same time, in every moment.
It can be tricky feeling your 'body' at the same time as your
attention is out in the world, because of our habits of feeling
that everything has to be routed through the head, because that's
where we've normally felt that 'we' are. And it might seem like
it's asking you to have your attention focused in more than
one place at a time, i.e. on what you're doing, and on your
body. But it's actually just one attention, spread out across
that whole body-world continuum. It's a wide awareness.
Some Examples
There has been so much said and written about
'wholeness' over the years, even in respectable scientific ways,
and yet hardly any of it ever gets to the common sense level
of everyday life. Wholeness or undividedness has usually been
described as something to try to get, rather than something
we already have and experience in some (simple) ways every day.
To borrow one of David Gorman's great examples.
Getting into and out of a chair are nearly always described
as "getting up out of a chair" and "sitting down in a chair".
But not all of you was in the chair in the first place, so it
doesn't make sense to say you are getting 'out' of
the chair. For example your feet were never in the
chair, they were on the ground. Nor was most of your legs or
your head and shoulders. So these expressions describe a you
that is just your torso, centred on your head, rather than a
whole, undivided body. If you do cut yourself in half like that
you will without a doubt experience standing as a getting up,
as you try to lug the top half of you upwards. Similarly sitting
will be a sitting down, as you drop that upper bit of you into
the chair. But try it all again this time feeling yourself as
a full body, and you'll notice that there's no sense of any
getting up or falling down, but rather of your entire body moving
from one supported shape (standing or sitting) to another (sitting
or standing). Your body changes shape, but at no time is one
part of it trying to pull the other part upwards or drop it
downwards. Everything is working together.
To extend David's example a little further
to bring the world back in, as an undivided being you also need
to consider all of this from the viewpoint of the world around
you. People generally don't use chairs just for their own sake,
even as a single undivided person as described just now. They
are in the world. They sit and stand for reasons that derive
from that world. For example if I wanted to stand from the chair
I'm in at the moment and go to the kitchen to make a cup of
tea, my 'getting up' is part of a change to the whole context
of what I'm doing. You could abstract the movement of my body
out of that whole scene and say it's getting up out of a chair,
but when you put the context back in it all starts to look very
different. Every moment of that transition from sitting here
to being in the kitchen is itself a fully lived reality with
all of its own context — I shift my context of working on the
computer to my awareness shifting out into the room I'm about
to walk into, and then as I move from the chair each moment
I am in that room and taking in what's happening around me,
not just what my body is doing. And the same applies to every
moment between here and the kitchen. There's always a surrounding
context I'm a part of, a whole situation, not separate at all
to what 'my body' is doing.
(Above I mentioned the idea of releasing
yourself into movement, rather than pushing or pulling on bits
of yourself. From this wider context perspective, the releasing
is actually the process of you changing contexts. So you're
not so much releasing your body from one place into another
as you're changing the whole situation you're living, of which
your body is a part.)
But when we struggle and strain to 'stand
up' or 'sit down' we strip all of that context away and suddenly
become this little point up in our heads again, trying to pull
and push the rest of us into various positions. We think we
have to do that. But we don't; we don't have to leave the world
we were in just a moment before to go inside there and do all
that struggling and straining. We can just be in the world the
whole time. And if we are then everything is completely effortless
and 'does itself', because there's no separate person doing
anything in the first place, just a continuously changing whole
context that includes 'you'. A simple context like watching
TV, or making a cup of tea, no mystical 'one-ness with nature'.
That's what wholeness means, just you in the world, in everyday
contexts. If I pour a cup of tea that's in no way separate from
what my feet are doing, what I can hear, smell, what I'm thinking,
the conversation I might be having — it's all happening at the
same time. And if you don't withdraw from all of that and if
you let it all happen at the same time, everything will be beautifully
effortless and poised.
The Everyday
There are even bigger implications of allowing
yourself to be part of the world. It's not just movement and
posture and breathing and circulation (and so on) that can become
effortless, needing nothing from you. And you won't just start
to notice so many more things happening in your life through
letting your senses do what they're designed to do. Being part
of the world removes any need for the huge variety of existential
decision-making we normally go on with. Being part of the world
means not just what we sense and feel, but all of the events
in our lives. So all the decisions we make every day, about
anything you like, we often approach in that sort of controlling
way we saw above is unnecessary with your body and posture/movement.
We feel that we need to be in the driver's seat, making choices
and decisions in our lives, to steer them. But you don't need
to do that. If you allow yourself to be part of those events
in the same way that you can allow sights and sounds just to
be there, you'll find that you never need to sit back and 'think
about things' at all. Events will just unfold in some way that
works for you. That doesn't mean things will always turn out
well, because that's existence — it's not all good. But the
'right' response that you need to make in every situation will
just happen, the 'answer' to things will just come to you and
you'll find yourself responding in ways that just work, without
having to work it out at all.
That sounds bizarre to some, I'm sure. We're
so deeply in love with control that it seems ridiculous that
we don't need to do that. If you work in an organisation the
idea that you don't need to do extensive strategic and other
planning to do the thing that is best for the organisation might
seem outrageous. But time and again studies have shown that
all that planning has no effect on the success of an organisation,
and the ones that succeed are those that simply respond to events
as they happen in the most flexible way. Planners like to paint
that as "being reactive rather than proactive", but that's a
false dichotomy. Reactive is the mirror image of planning —
it's planning to do nothing. That's not responding,
which is quite different. Responding is like allowing your body
to be moved by events in the world around you, rather than trying
to make it move. It's letting things unfold in the way that
seems the right way, at the time. Not trying to guess what's
going to happen and planning for it, but letting things happen
and responding to them as they happen. That's not any more short-term
than planning either, those responses can and do create changes
to an organisation that go on for years or even decades. The
same can apply to your everyday life at home.
(The title of this article of course refers
to Milan Kundera's novel The Unbearable Lightness of Being.
Kundera explores the age-old question of whether our lives have
eternally recurring themes, and therefore have a heaviness of
never being rid of things, or whether each thing that happens
is always new, and our lives therefore have a lightness. But
then also whether this lightness is unbearable because nothing
lasts. Tensegrity and wholeness allow you to have both — they
allow you a beautiful, meaningful (and therefore of course quite
bearable!) lightness, in everything you do.)
You can take the same approach into completely
different areas, like emotional problems. Say you suffer from
anxiety or depression. Sufferers of these conditions live a
separation of the feelings they experience from the context
of those feelings. They feel anxious or sad, and spend their
days picking at those feelings. They've lost sight of the fact
that feelings when working properly are part of a context. A
person is sad about something, or anxious about
something. They've lost the 'about'. If they start plugging
those feelings into the situations they're actually living,
they become almost immediately better, because it's suddenly
plain that the feelings don't match the situations. (Been there
myself, I'm not being glib.) Just as sights and sounds and thoughts
are all part of a unified experience, so are emotions and feelings,
if you let them be. And once you do, again there's nothing for
you to do, you will automatically respond in the appropriate
ways that match what those emotions and feelings are trying
to tell you.
'Physical' conditions are the same. Just
about every ache and pain when plugged back into the context
of what you're doing at the time, rather than trying to push
the pain away, will dissolve. That's because pain is the feeling
of the body being stressed and trying to return itself to an
equilibrium. Accept the pain within the context of what you're
doing and your body does the rest. This has been proven to work
even for extreme pain, such as for kidney stones. Try it, it's
the last thing you would think of doing, but it works. That's
what tensegrity structures do, they form systems within systems
across multiple scales, which means any pain you feel in whatever
part of your body can be linked to every other thing you're
doing. A pain is a knot or tension somewhere in this network,
and that added tension is at the same time the network trying
to restore itself.
The Language of Wholeness
How we describe our experience is nearly
always a completely accurate rendering of how we actually inhabit
the world. Going back to the earlier example of 'getting up'
from a chair, that way of conceptualising and describing the
process is perfectly consistent with the pulling and pushing
which then goes on. If you think that moving from a chair is
about 'getting up', then that's part of a whole pattern way
of doing that which will include all that struggling and straining
and ignoring of the context of that activity.
Language is another part of the full patterns
of our lives, and it's therefore no surprise that how we use
it embodies how we act and feel. And there's a big extension
of this fact.
Everyday language is the language of
wholeness.
If you isolate where in our lives 'wholeness'
happens, it's in the everyday experiences we have. That can
include our work experiences, any activity that is part of our
everyday living. There is an assumption that life has three
rough layers:
— General, abstract
— The everyday, 'macro' level
— The 'micro' level
So as an example, going back to the earlier
example of making a cup of tea. That 'making tea' is the level
of you in the kitchen doing that which we all know and do all
the time, the 'macro' level of common sense. But we assume that
to that we could add a 'micro' level of the atoms in the tea
and tea cup, and the organs and molecules in our bodies, and
so on. And 'above' the everyday level we might assume we could
have a general or abstract level of description of what's going
on, and theories about how water boils and tea draws in a cup,
and so on.
Each level has its own specific set of concepts
and language. With the 'micro' we usually have 'technical' language,
with scientific concepts about atoms and organs, etc. At the
general or abstract level (and the micro itself is often called
abstract, but in the opposite direction), you have general terms
that summarise or encompass the situation and situate it within
a much broader context of ideas. At the everyday level we have
the language and concepts of the everyday, like "I'm making
a cup of tea with this hot water".
It's the middle or everyday level where all
the wholeness happens. There is no more precise way to describe
wholeness than everyday language and concepts. For a variety
of interesting reasons beyond the scope of this article, the
two more abstract levels of the general and the micro are thought
to somehow be more precise and contain the real essence or truth
of the everyday situations we live in. But it's not true. (And
in fact there are no levels, but again that's a different
paper.) All of the wholeness happens in that everyday level
of doing things, and you will never find a better or truer vantage
point upon that everyday by jumping to either of the other levels.
The everyday seems too messy, too mixed and
impure to be true in the way that abstract or technical terms
seem to be. But that's because life is full of impure
mixtures, and if you want to describe them accurately there
is no way to do it except for everyday language and
concepts. They are perfect for the task, nothing can be more
precise because then it wouldn't be part of the everyday.
It can take some practice to trust the everyday
in this way. It's very common to feel that the truth of how
things are is somehow 'beneath' or 'above' them, in those other
levels. Providence in all its varieties. And when you practice
acting in the world as a full tensegrity structure and as a
being that is inseparable from the world, often you might find
yourself falling for that, isolating out some piece of the whole
and flogging it to death in your doing, or making it about some
general principles. But that common sense, everyday level is
where it's all at, it's in teasing apart simple phrases and
concepts like 'getting up' that you discover the patterns you're
living.
After all you live in the everyday world,
and unless you 'get' this at that level, you're not ever going
to be able to take it out into that everyday life. Every single
time it seems complicated and about doing some method or technique,
you've left the everyday and are missing the point. It will
always be much more simple than that. It will be about concepts
like rushing, I'm heavy, I'm rushing, walking is something only
my legs do, and so on. Those concepts capture it all perfectly,
and allow you to understand from within the context of your
lived life what's going on. 'Common sense' is just that — the
common meaning for things. Their everyday, shared 'sense'.
Wholeness is not a mystical, to-be-attained
'state'. It's that seamless flowing life where we're just getting
on with things without any sense of separation from ourselves
or from what's around us, where we make the tea and don't even
think about cups or water or tea, or our hands holding cups
or our feet resting on the ground. That's why we call it "making
tea" and not 'getting the cup out of the cupboard with
my hands and arms while I stand on the ground with my feet,
and boiling the water and adding the tea, and smelling the tea
brewing, and getting out the milk and the sugar…", and
so on.
It's one seamless whole.
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There is
a small biography of personal details
about the author below.

About the Author
Dr.
Nick Drengenberg trained and worked as an engineer, before working as a teacher of high school students for almost 10 years. During this time he also trained in philosophy, and now works as an administrator at a University, with active research interests in a variety of areas, including the LearningMethods approach.
He recently co-authored a
book on learning analytics, which explored how technology and education have not really ever understood each other very well, and what to do about it.
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